PL: Swimming Home

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PL: Swimming Home

Postby Iar Edra » Sun May 10, 2015 5:53 pm

PL: Swimming Home
Way down, all the way down
I will hear your voice, but I'll no longer understand
I'm sorry, nothing can hold me
I adore you still, but I hear them calling...
I was looking to the sky, when I knew I'd be swimming home
And I cannot betray my kind, they are here, it's my time
I'm sorry, nothing can hold me
I adore you still, but I hear them calling
And nothing can hold me.

Three months.
It had been a three full months since that awful day on the ranch, and there had been no change in Henry's condition. Each day that went by, it was harder and harder to be hopeful. They had been back on Earth for several weeks now. And she'd been by his side the entire time. The girls had been visiting often, but were otherwise staying with their Aunt Michelle. The Merc had had to continue her missions, so another Commander had been brought in to take charge of her. Edra received updates, but couldn't recall where they were at the moment.
Somehow, she had hoped that when they arrived on Earth, that there would be a specialist who would be able to give them a better prognosis. Someone who knew where to send him for some new treatment or procedure. Surely, with the bank of knowledge that existed at Starfleet Medical, someone would know something. But they had all said the same thing. There was nothing else that could be done. And for every day that passed, his chances of recovery decreased. And even if he did wake up, there was still the roughly 50% chance of a successful surgery to fix the paralysis. He'd been in an uphill battle since being tossed out of the shuttle, but that hill only seemed to get steeper as the months had passed, becoming impossible to overcome.
A few days after the incident, when there had been no change in his brainwave activity, Dr. Whelan had informed her that it might eventually reach a point where she had to decide to let him go. At the time, she had refused to believe it would get that far, but as the last few weeks had passed, she'd had no choice but to recognize that it was a very real possibility. As the possibility turned into probably, her taxed heart had had time to adjust, to accept that if it had to be done it would be the right decision. Even though it meant she'd never see his face again, never kiss him again, no longer feel his arms around her. Nevertheless, yesterday, she'd finally, actually made that decision. She'd had so many discussions with the doctors, with his sisters, and with Caressa. Nobody wanted it, but they had all had also agreed that he wouldn't want to continue on this way.
So, earlier today everyone had come by for the last time, said their goodbyes, and gave her their support. She'd given his sisters and their families, Caressa and the twins, and Chance time alone with him to say what they would, then she'd taken the girls to see him. When they were done, she spent some time comforting them, wiping away tears, and giving them hugs and kisses. Then Chance took them for her. Now she was left standing there, unable to wrap her mind around the fact that this would be it. Never, in their lives together, had she considerd this an outcome. It still felt as if they'd only recently renewed their relationship, just to have it end so soon, like this?
"I'm sorry." She said softly as she stroked the side of his face. "I'm sorry I couldn't do any more. But I know you don't want to be like this." She paused. "I hope you know how much I will miss you. You've been the best husband a I could have ever wanted: a protector, supporter, companion, and father. You did everything you were supposed to do, and we never lacked for anything. I don't know what I'm going to do without you.
"Well, that's not completely true. I will make sure the girls will always remember who you were and how much you loved them. And your son will know all about you, and all the wonderful things you've done." She closed her eyes as a tear rolled down her cheek. "I wish you could have seen him, even just once." She stopped, trying to think of something else to say, anything else to keep from going further, but her mind only focused on the next step.
So with a final sigh, she looked up and nodded to the nurse who would turn off all the equipment.
"You're sure?" The nurse said.
But Edra nodded. "Yes."
The nurse began flipping switches on the wall, and Edra listened to the beeps as they slowed, and watched the bars on the display shrink. She turned back to Henry and leaned down so that they were cheek to cheek, with a hand on the the other side of his face. She held him that way as the slow beeps turned into a long tone. As tears streamed down her face she whispered, "I will always love you."
A muscle spasm wracked her body, and she lifted her head off of her arm, looking around through blurry tears. She wiped them away with her hand. She was in Sickbay, on the Merc, and her ears picked up the sound of a steady beeping.
It had been a dream.
A sob escaped as she looked back at Henry. He was still alive. Still in the same condition, but that was ok. She had to catch her breath as her dream-induced emotions drained away. She grabbed his hand with one of hers and wiped the tears away with her other. When a few minute had passed, she was able to regain her equilibrium, and all she could think was, "Please, don't leave me."
Cmdr Edra Crow--XO--USS Mercutio

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